“The red washing down the bathtub
can’t change the color of the sea
at all."
We were never friends; not for a second. I loved you.
Orange Is The New Black (via ohfairies)
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Do not mock a pain that you haven’t endured.
Unknown (via beccers)
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When you’re an introvert like me and you’ve been lonely for a while, and then you find someone who understands you, you become really attached to them. It’s a real release.
Lana Del Rey (via sin-tra)
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actually examining the rafters in my garage and looking up videos on how to tie a noose.
so many triggers eating disorder wise and of course right as i’m truly attempting to eat relatively normally. it’s all around me and i’m so sensitive right now and i can feel myself just slipping back into a “whatever why should i even try i need to be smaller anyway looks like everyone is doing it so why bother” kind of mindset. i don’t know, it’s just hard to keep healthy goals in mind when things are like this. i am trying though, but i fear i’m very close to giving up, at least in this aspect. cravings for drugs have been worse lately because i feel so alone all the time and at least i can enjoy my own company when i’m high, but i haven’t given into them yet. just keep resisting. i figure as long as some part of me stays conscious and aware of the fact that they are a huge contributor to why i feel this way i should be able to stay clean. i hope so anyway. feeling really attacked by everyone right now. at school, at home, no one is pleased with me, someone is always discouraging me, making me feel inadequate and scared and uncertain. i don’t know. been talking more to jesse at home and that’s honestly keeping me mostly sane. he doesn’t treat me like i’m damaged and evil and blame me for things, it’s a nice change.